Ultimate Frisbee.

I forgot how much I loved playing it. It's been WAYYY too long.

Lent

Most people love it. Some people don't like it. I've personally never done anything for it. But that changed this year.

I gave up soda. Because I've realized, I've come to depend on it a lot. I can't remember the last time I got water or iced tea at any cafeteria for lunch or dinner. I had become addicted to caffeine, and was depending on it, and didn't even know. It's only been one day and I'm getting headaches. This is so good for me.

This morning in Chapel (after I had decided to give up pop), they challenged us to try giving up something that doesn't just benefit us. Guilt trip..... sorta. I figured that pop would be way too easy. Of course I can sacrifice that. They asked what's getting in the way of our relationship with God. To be honest, It's thinking and worrying and still caring too much for my ex. And it is getting in the way with me and God. So I decided I'd try my best to give up worrying about her. And it's actually worked. Whenever the second comes that I start thinking about her, I just tell myself to stop. And surprisingly enough, it works. Now I'm not trying to forget about her completely, but I'm just not dwelling on the wrongs and how much hurt came from it. This is so good for me.

Finally, instead of giving up something, I decided to pick up something. The more I go to the prayer chapel outside my dorm, the more I love it. It's a wonderful place of solitude and silence. It's very settling and peaceful. So I decided to make a habit to go in there every day. But to be realistic, it only has to be at least 60 seconds. I did this because I know I can't spend 30 minutes in there every day, I could be in a hurry. But 60 seconds is just the right amount of time to get a prayer and some silence in. But I'll most likely want to stay for longer anyway.

Lent. Ash Wednesday. I've never really got into this season. But you can get so much out of it if you just let it.

Last Weekend

Last weekend was... interesting. LOTS of stuff happened. But the most important and coolest, was sunday. I got the chance to spend almost an entire day with someone who's coming to APU next year. We watched a few movies (Including Extreme Days because she and I both LOVE the movie, and not many people know about it). But other than that, we spent a lot of time just talking.

Pause. Let me catch you up with my life. Truths that I have known as lies keep coming to me, and have thus slowed down the process of getting over certain things, and getting more and more hurt in the process. But I believe it's done now. It's been so hard. Especially with my faith. It's really hard to see where this is taking me. It's hard to see why all this happened because I don't believe that I deserved ALL of it. It's hard to see how so much hurt could possibly turn into something good. But having something like this happen, has helped me to only try and trust him more through everything. The more things that happen, the more I realize that this life can NEVER EVER be controlled by me, or anyone else who currently lives here on Earth. I'm learning to trust Him more. But like I said, it's still rough. But he's helped me through things. Especially just seeing what I need to do on a daily basis. Then I don't worry to much about the future.

Play. I was talking with this girl about, well, pretty much everything I just told you. I told her how amazing it feels to constantly be reminded that God is with me, and when I do what he wants, It pleases him. Pretty much almost everything we talked about related back to God. She's truly a unique person and I hope that this friendship will continue on, because I love having someone to talk with about God... A person that understands me, and I can relate to.

It made me realize that we can't be alone. We need relationships. MAINLY because we wouldn't learn nearly as much about God. I learned a lot from talking to her for just a few hours. We learn about God from each other. There's a little bit of God that shows through everyone. And you just have to find that bit.

Happy Valentines Day!!!

It's my first Valentines Day alone since 4 years ago. TIME TO CELEBRATE FULL WALLET DAY!!! WOOHOO!!! =)

Mmmm....

4 Day Weekend? I don't see why not!

Balumtine'th Day

Dave Barnes. Cracks me up.

Yummm....

Every once in a while, getting up really early feels really nice. And somehow, it's easier. My alarm clock went off at 5:25 and once I got up, I was much more awake than I would have been if I woke up at 10:30. Strange. Took a nice warm shower. Then I went to Denny's. It was still dark. Me and my three friends arrived at Denny's right at 6. There was a HUGE line to get in (If you didn't know... Denny's had free Grand Slam breakfasts today from 6 to 2). We waited about 15 minutes. They were seating fast. Breakfasts always taste so much better when they're free. Walked back out through the fire-hazardous crowd in the front and drove back. Mornings feel so much better like this. I love you Denny's.